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Pokémon 30th Anniversary! So yes.. I'm almost 40. I played from first Game Boy Pokémon games.   Anyway, I loved the digital ads in Umeda, but my phone storage was too full to take any videos.. I went to Osaka a lot this week. for both work and private stuff. One day my friends got together there. Osaka such a grate place. I ate great food at several places with my friends, which helped relieve my stress. Finally, maybe I went to cityside so much this week, I got a fever.. Why do I get sick so easily..It makes me sad.

I turned a full time job this year, in 2026 from freelancer. Today, I went to Umeda office for the first time.  But from the beginning, I was tired. I felt nervouse, and I don't like office building anyway. Becouse the corridor is dark, I become negative. if I stay there working, I start to feel depressed. The office felt stuffy and uncomfortable. There are too many co-workers and people. I get exhausted that atmospere. and just commuting back and forth drains all my energy! I realized I probably can't go back to being an office employee ever again. Remote work is the only style that really works for now.

I started having caterpillars. All three of them will be swallowtail butterflys. They are mysterious little creatures. If you tired your life. I recomend have one. Have you think about Why a caterpillar can change grow with wing?? How does an egg become a caterpillar, and then a butterfly? I watch everyday, and I've really grown fond of them. Each one has a different character, that's so interesting. One day in the morning, I was working around neighborhood. Dead caterpillar on side the road. He was flattened. I imagined him trying so hard to across the street. I felt really sad. Even though when I was child, I killed some bugs without thinking. Now, I want to protect them! and I hope my worms will become beautiful butterflies.

We went to Osaka Expo!!!! It was my therd time visiting. It's was great finish the Expo, and I realy enjoyed it with my family and friends. A week later, people are feeling the Expo blue. They go to Yumeshima station, and put a message at the gate, and they were returning home.. I laughed when I heard this. Becouse people too much loved the Expo. Anyway, I met Osaka-Expo LAWSON avatar. She looks digital but a real human. Not AI or not fake things. She's professional LAWSON stuff. and she controls avatar remotely. If I ask "Where is snack" or "What do you recommend?" she take  care of the customer and also assists at the self-service cash register. Now LAWSON started employ avatar stuff. After many people applied. Avatar stuff has merit of able to work freely without constraints.  In the future, they could be service at the overseas from anywhere, and person who disabilities could work more easily that great technology I thought. Me too, I want to...

September was hell for my work. I joined some project, I was handling seven projects at the same time, that started crazy busy days. No weekends, no sleep every night, Just working whole days. My daugter screamed “Stop your work!” and I was very sad and I cried.. Finally! I’m done to the crazy project, but I lost 4 kilos in last month. and I felt bit depressd. I traded my mental and physical health for a salary.   After next day. October! began! I went to beauty places, a nail-salon hairsalon, and eyelash. After that, I went to movie theater. I blew off all my stress that day! When I use to live in Tokyo. I also had hard work. I remenbered. it’s not change. I earned good salary, but I spend all money and time for my strees. I really want to I graduated from this curse! for Next my Goal. I swear.

I have a child. She's 2 years old last month. I never cared about kids before. but after she came, I sterted to lean my life for her! Action, face, feelings and expression, everything. If I hava a little depress, she destroy negativethings and charges me. One of my fears is that she has such a pure heart now, but when she grows up and enters society, she may become sad and face painful things. Nowadays, many young people say they don’t want kids, as I see in the news. I don’t care about people’s choices, but I feel they just don’t know the positive side of it. If that is the answer, it feels so sad. I hope every kids are treasure. what kids of child has power to feel eternal.