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I turned a full time job this year, in 2026 from freelancer. Today, I went to Umeda office for the first time.  But from the beginning, I was tired. I felt nervouse, and I don't like office building anyway. Becouse the corridor is dark, I become negative. if I stay there working, I start to feel depressed. The office felt stuffy and uncomfortable. There are too many co-workers and people. I get exhausted that atmospere. and just commuting back and forth drains all my energy! I realized I probably can't go back to being an office employee ever again. Remote work is the only style that really works for now.

I took the TOIEC test for the first time. The test place was Notre Dame University in Kyoto. It's been in the news, becouse it will close next year. Kyoto Kitayama is fancy area. it's kind of Daikanyama in Tokyo. The house there are huge, and there's music hall & Gakushuin-related schools nearby. It didn't seem like a place that close. I haven't gotten result yet! But I really studied for it........ It's very difficult to study while raising a child!!!!!!! And getting good score is very different from being able to speak English. On that day, my headache was crazy terrible. because I just recovered from COVID. And even though I could get a good score when I practiced at home, but I could't do as well the TOIEC test. At the venue, I feel nervous of the atmosphere, and near the end I just wanted to stop. I ran out of time and marked some answers randomly.. Recently, there was news about people getting zero scores on Eiken by mistake . So I hope...

We want to a restaurant we hadn't been to in a long time!!! We went to an Italian restaurant at a Ace hotel Kyoto! The customers were almost all foreigners. I loved that kind of atmosphere. Of course we enjoyed it.... but my daughter was so excited.  She wanted to walk the restaurant garden all the time. The customers next to us looked like an American family. They has small kids and they were very quiet. Is it always difficult to have a fancy dinner with kids????!

I started having caterpillars. All three of them will be swallowtail butterflys. They are mysterious little creatures. If you tired your life. I recomend have one. Have you think about Why a caterpillar can change grow with wing?? How does an egg become a caterpillar, and then a butterfly? I watch everyday, and I've really grown fond of them. Each one has a different character, that's so interesting. One day in the morning, I was working around neighborhood. Dead caterpillar on side the road. He was flattened. I imagined him trying so hard to across the street. I felt really sad. Even though when I was child, I killed some bugs without thinking. Now, I want to protect them! and I hope my worms will become beautiful butterflies.

We went to Osaka Expo!!!! It was my therd time visiting. It's was great finish the Expo, and I realy enjoyed it with my family and friends. A week later, people are feeling the Expo blue. They go to Yumeshima station, and put a message at the gate, and they were returning home.. I laughed when I heard this. Becouse people too much loved the Expo. Anyway, I met Osaka-Expo LAWSON avatar. She looks digital but a real human. Not AI or not fake things. She's professional LAWSON stuff. and she controls avatar remotely. If I ask "Where is snack" or "What do you recommend?" she take  care of the customer and also assists at the self-service cash register. Now LAWSON started employ avatar stuff. After many people applied. Avatar stuff has merit of able to work freely without constraints.  In the future, they could be service at the overseas from anywhere, and person who disabilities could work more easily that great technology I thought. Me too, I want to...

Japan had the first female Prime Minister. It's good things in this country. She from normal countryside family and hard life. Now, in her age of middle sixty's. I hope she will inspire many work women, example those over 40 - 50's. Now I'm a turning before 40. I wondering about my career. even though if I have child. I want to study abroad at a university and advance my career! So, I’m glad to hear first female Prime Minister. that our become courage. But her policies are conservative opinion. I think they don’t follow the world’s standard. It's like "separate family names" and "female emperor" are still keep, the old way. and not move in direction. that sad point.

September was hell for my work. I joined some project, I was handling seven projects at the same time, that started crazy busy days. No weekends, no sleep every night, Just working whole days. My daugter screamed “Stop your work!” and I was very sad and I cried.. Finally! I’m done to the crazy project, but I lost 4 kilos in last month. and I felt bit depressd. I traded my mental and physical health for a salary.   After next day. October! began! I went to beauty places, a nail-salon hairsalon, and eyelash. After that, I went to movie theater. I blew off all my stress that day! When I use to live in Tokyo. I also had hard work. I remenbered. it’s not change. I earned good salary, but I spend all money and time for my strees. I really want to I graduated from this curse! for Next my Goal. I swear.