MaaaaiSaaaan

I’m a freelancer with a family, and I’ve been looking for a full-time position since the beginning of this year. But I feel stuck. Sometimes I wonder, “Maybe I don’t really need a permanent job,” or “Would it even be a problem if I didn’t get hired?” I also dislike overly busy work styles. Nowadays it’s not that I’m dissatisfied with my freelance work, and I’m not really struggling with it. I’m just worried about my overall career. We can live a modest life in local city in Japan. but days of constant inner turmoil. I have to grow. I want to aim for my next goal! I want to use English in my main job!!! So today, I'll keep working on my tasks.Let’s carry on sincerely. Think about it every day.

This month, we had End of War Day. I always watch the news about the Hiroshima and Nagasaki Peace Ceremonies every year. Suddenly, I realized that one of my co-workers is from Hiroshima. I asked her, “Did your family have any victims of the atomic bomb?” She said, “Oh, my great-grandfather just melted and disappear.. He went to the city for business alone, and on that day, he never came back. No one knows his story.” Since then, he has been missing. I was really shocked. I have never had a friend from Hiroshima before, and even though I am Japanese, Every year I watch the news. but I had never felt the horrible accident so close to me until now. And there were countless citizens like that. It was truly miserable and inhuman.